One of the problems with bipolar writers is that some of us have thin skin. I remember the hell I went through when I started putting out my first “series of books” last year. I thought I was putting the books out there to help people with the No Contact Rule, but maybe I really just wanted the world to listen to my sad personal struggles, lol. I was in a deep depression, and writing was all I could think to do to keep myself from checking out. Eventually, I became manic, and I cranked out seven volumes in a ridiculously short amount of time.
The books weren’t perfect because I’m not a professional writer according to most editors. I could never afford professional editing, and I doubted if any huge publisher would ever pick me up. Therefore, I chose the self-publishing route.
My first rating was one star in the UK. The man said that my book was fool of…what’s the word…not bollocks…not drivel…but something like that. Then, I got slammed in Germany with one star from a man who felt as though my book was shizen. I was crushed by those ratings, and eventually, I stopped writing the books, and I took my entire series off the market. Let me add that I still made sales—real cash sales—but I couldn’t handle the consumer rejections at the time.
Information about the No Contact Rule shouldn’t be for sale anyway. I can provide that right from my blog, and I can help people who really need it…for free.
Now, a year later, I’m doing mini-books again, but I’m trying something entirely different. My skin is a lot thicker this time. I did the free promotion again, and of course, someone left a poor rating on it. But guess what? It was two stars instead of one, so maybe my writing got a little better since last year. I don’t know what the commentary says, and I’m not going to read it just yet. It may be about the grammar, the format, the cover, or the story. It could be that someone just felt like leaving a low review for a free book. I have no idea. I’m currently on Volume 2, and I will be going through Volume 1 again and making changes to any mistakes I find while it’s free. I will also view the commentary and see if it contains any useful information that I can use for the next one. Some reviews are very helpful, and some of them are just rude put-downs from various trolls.
Last year, I would have been sad, beat down, ashamed, crushed, humiliated etc. over anything less than a five-star rating. This year, I take it as a sign that someone was interested enough to keep reading it, and that person cared enough to say something about it. He or she certainly doesn’t have to continue with the next release.
The point of this post is to state that I did get better with criticism and with not being perfect. I’m okay with not being Stephen King; I’m okay as Timiarah Camburn. I’m cool with people “demoting” me on websites after four years of service if it makes them feel superior. I just don’t write for them anymore.
What’s important to me right now is my own happiness. At this point in my life, I’m going to continue to do whatever makes me happy. Now, on to my writing while I’m still coherent enough to do such.