The Nix List

I’ve been having a good ole time nixing things that I don’t need or want. I am having an absolute blast tossing the devil’s little toys back at him. It is fun. Electronics, video games, tablets and various toys: gone or in the process of going! I only keep what I need for work or communications. J now has only a normal amount of “little boy things” rather than the mound of idolatry that certain people thrust upon him.

I removed my labret jewelry today. GASP! Pretty radical, huh? I did not feel convicted about having the labret jewelry in until I openly admitted that I liked it a lot, lol. Then I felt compelled to remove it to prove my devotion. I didn’t have to, but I did. I could have been reluctant, but why? What really made me crack down and take it out was the WWJD concept. What would Jesus do?

Jesus would not wear facial jewelry. He loves us with or without our facial jewelry, however. It’s a personal choice for everyone. No one has to do it, nor am I suggesting that everyone remove his or her facial jewelry. I did it because I wanted to show that these trendy items and concepts don’t really have that much of a hold on me after all. I have been allowing my gray hair to show, as well. I only have about three gray hairs, but now I would like more of them to emerge. I’m not a teenager, and besides, gray hair is a crown of glory. I want it, tee-hee.

I will be continuing my “don’t touch the narcissists” series next week. I think people should have a true look at “the narcissist” so they know not to play in the fire. I can only stand talking about those fellas once a week, however.

Personal Wrath-O-Meter

Ephesians 4

26 Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath: 27 Neither give place to the devil.

How hot is your personal wrath-o-meter? Everyone has one, but some people need more adjusting than others do. Mine was about an 8 in some cases. I used to be a person who did not exercise much control over my anger. Much of my anger was for righteous reasons (I thought), but I have to admit that some of it was for selfish reasons. The Bible says that we are allowed to get angry, but we can’t sin as a result of such anger. What does that mean? Does it mean we can do this?


Uh—no, but it’s a really cool picture.

Personally, I think getting angry over true ungodliness is normal and acceptable. Dwelling on it and trying to be a mini-judge is where folks like me can get into trouble.

I had to ask Jesus for help with my wrath-o-meter. I had to surrender myself to become filled and overcome anger. I have only exercised two mini-wraths since I surrendered, and they were nothing like the ones I used to display. I got upset with Comcast for wallet robbery, and I got upset with J’s ex-school for being corrupt. I did one of those “Forgive me, Lord Jesus, but….” deals before I “said my peace.” I didn’t dwell on the stuff, however. I took immediate action and resolved the situations. I’m sure I wrote a post about it, but then I forgot about it.

It gets better as each day passes. I no longer say “forgive me” and then go off, ha-ha. I pray instead. I do it right in front of people if I need to. If you want to change, you have to be a willing participant. The Spirit will do the tweaking if you allow Him to. He’ll want to remove some things and add some things. You have to have a “go for it” attitude and not be scared of Him. I guess I took a long time to develop because I wasn’t sure what He was going to “do.” I was also scared to get a baptism because I didn’t know what was going to happen to me at that moment (falling down, shaking, speaking in tongues, etc.) I had seen some very strange things in church during younger years. Baptists have quite a bit of enthusiasm, and it may have frightened me, lol.

I had somehow convinced myself that I had already had it done, but I hadn’t. By the time last year rolled around, I was ready to dive head first into the water! I jumped in there the moment I received a text confirmation that I never had it done. Things started getting much better for me after that.

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Tag Team Narcissists (Please Avoid)

“Workers of iniquity” is one of my favorite phrases in the Bible. Boy do I love my KJV, lol. The term could be used to describe persons who perform rank and heinous acts against other human beings for sick pleasure. My narcissist list was so long that I could not possibly post it all at once. I will have to give each iniquity worker a separate post. I’ll start with “team narco,” which is a mother and son tag team.

If the man that you are dating exhibits narcissistic behaviors, you can assume that at least one of his parents is a narcissist, as well. He did not automatically become such a person. In fact, he may have been a sweet or extremely sensitive child at some point. Some narcissist most likely abused him due to evil influences, and then those evil influences overtook him because he most likely was never taught any concept of the Lord or right and wrong. Now he just uses people, curses his family, abuses, manipulates and enjoys other people’s pain.

I can describe the kind of person that one of the ex narcs is by telling you about just one incident. I almost bled to death and died. Literally. He did not come to the hospital to support me, and he did not visit me the entire time I was healing. Instead, he asked me to send him a big ole picture of the staples that were holding my stomach together. Of all the things he could have done for me during that time, he chose that. Folks, that is pure evil and sadistic hatred. I’m surprised he didn’t ask me if he could come over and strum the staples like a guitar, as well. It’s not a joke. I’m trying to stress the pure evil that exists in such persons. There is nothing “good” in someone that treats another human being in such a way. That person unfortunately works for satan, and you are not likely to change his employer by yourself.

I made the mistake of thinking I could change/help/fix this person. I wanted to drag him out of the pit, and he obviously wanted to throw me into the pit, lol. I felt compassion, empathy and love toward him because he was a human being. I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone that I did not love as a human being. Unfortunately, this person didn’t understand any of it. He even asked me once, “Why are you like that?” Lol, like it was a bad thing. Love is definitely not a bad thing. It’s much more powerful than evil is, that’s for sure. Love put me back together after the narcissists tried destroy me. Ouch. I felt like I had a million pieces of broken glass inside my body after dealing with several of them.

That particular narcissist and his mother/partner took me for some pretty painful rides. The son tried to make me into this dirty girl image that was not who I was. The mother pretended to be my “friend” to get my personal information for her emotional abuse fests. Later, she stabbed me (emotionally) really good a couple times, and then I got the hell away from her ASAP. The “relationship” with the son went too far, and now we have “ties.” The tag team still tries to abuse me through those ties, but their game is really lame and tiresome at this point. Yawn. I think I just fell asleep thinking about their recent efforts.

<h1>Common Signs That You are Involved With a Narcissist</h1>

He covets and ruins what you have for no good reason
He gives you an immediate flood of (unhealthy) attention
He exercises unhealthy contact and lack of boundaries (text and call bombs)
He is nauseatingly vulgar and overly concerned with his “member”
He displays emotional instability
He calls you ungodly names whenever he doesn’t get his way
He constantly makes and breaks promises
He treats you like a piece of property
He disappears when you are at your lowest point and need him
He kicks you and/or spits on you when you are down
He poops on your dreams
He insists on redefining who you are to fit his sick and twisted image of women
He claims to “love you” way too early in the relationship
He abandons you and expects an invitation to do it again (delusions)
He runs from responsibility
He expects you to put up with his nonsense forever (entitlement)
Tag team narcissists will try to emotionally abuse your child if they can no longer affect you. Just saying for those who have children with a narcissist. It’s best to leave if you notice any of the above-stated behaviors. You can do nothing but pray to the Lord for these persons or encourage the persons (from afar) to pray to the Lord themselves. You shouldn’t tire yourself trying to “help.” After all, you aren’t the Savior. All you can do is lead people to the Savior. You can become severely contaminated by getting too involved with such persons. I was so contaminated that people couldn’t tell if I was good or not because I was cussing and doing random weird stuff that was out of character. Stay clean, and leave it to the Lord. The satan’s minion are His problem.
Proverbs 26

(KJV) 24 He that hateth dissembleth with his lips, and layeth up deceit within him;

(NABRE) 24 With their lips enemies pretend, but inwardly they maintain deceit;

A Biblical Description of the Narcissist

2 Timothy 3 King James Version (KJV)

3 This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come.

2 For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy,

3 Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good,

4 Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God;

5 Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away.

6 For of this sort are they which creep into houses, and lead captive silly women laden with sins, led away with divers lusts,

7 Ever learning, and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth.

That passage describes the narcissist and his victims perfectly. Those who read the entire Bible will have the wisdom to protect themselves from such people. Those who have half of a Biblical education will be devoured and battered by such people. The last part of the passage describes exactly what happened to me. I became a frequent narcissist delicacy because I didn’t read the entire Bible. I was a weakling who didn’t really know how to develop, and once the narcs got to me, they surely didn’t try to encourage my spiritual development, lol. Additionally, I didn’t repent frequently. Therefore, I was a silly girl/woman who was “laden with sins” and too immature and ignorant to realize that evil was coming in for the kill. I only had part of the Christian ideals right. I truly did care for everyone, but I cared for the wrong people at the expense of my own spiritual health. I cared for them to the point of disobedience. I was the epitome of a Biblical silly woman.

All I ever wanted was love. I never desired their physical expressions of lust, and I certainly didn’t desire physical, verbal or emotional abuse. I just wanted to get back the same love that I was cranking out. I wanted real love. Unfortunately, I got caught up in a seemingly never-ending cycle of trying to squeeze milk from a rock. The narcissist does not return love for love. He just takes whatever you give him, and many times, he will beat you down worse because you are such a loving person. The truth is that he hates you if you are compassionate in any way. He doesn’t want to be with you; he wants to hurt you. This is what many women fail to understand.

The narcissist wants nothing more than to see you to die. He will laugh at your pain, leave you at your deathbed, desert you for an immoral person and then try to come back (heh?), etc. If you are a believer, then he will find delight in leading you straight to hell. I’m being real. Narcissists are nothing to play with. God is the only entity that can “fix a narcissist.” All you can do is pray for such a one, and stay as far away from it as possible. The No Contact Rule practice can help you with that. As a Christian, you have to forgive the narcissist to stay spiritually balanced, but you don’t have to touch it or absorb any of its darkness.

Jesus has all the love you need. He will accept you despite your imperfections, and He will never abandon you. If you are having difficulties with a narcissist, you must seek help from the Lord. I know it’s rough being married to one as I was married to one before. You will find strength and healing in Christ, but you can’t be shy about asking Him for it. Your sins are forgiven.

My next post will describe several narcissistic types that I have come across in my lifetime. It may help you to recognize some of them. I had the displeasure of dealing with a veteran female narc and several male narcs. Hopefully, my post will help you to avoid going through what I went through.

In closing, I will say to read your Bible and pray every day. Lack of knowledge is a real Spirit quencher.

Domestic Violence/Abuse Recovery Ministry

Today has been a day of rest for me. I was so peaceful that I kept falling asleep all over the place. I almost fell asleep in church today. We didn’t have the regular “radio personality” pastor today. We had a different one. He wasn’t boring. He had a good sense of humor as he spoke about gluttony. However, his voice was a bit too calm, lol.

I want you to know that I’m not arrogant, and I don’t think I know it all. As I said, I dealt with a lot of judgmental people over the years. I’ve observed many conservative Christians, and I have witnessed a great deal of hypocrisies in my day. Hypocrisy has a way of making people not want to come forward with their faith, especially if they feel bad about dishonoring the Lord in some way. One of the worst feelings in the world is to have guilt about dishonoring God and then have a bunch of people look down on you, too.

Don’t take offense if I write something that speaks out to those people who judged me or assumed that I wasn’t a “real Christian” because of my mistakes, my immaturity, or somesuch man-made procedural criteria. You never know what’s truly in another person’s heart or mind unless he or she tells you. You can draw your conclusions, but they will most likely be incorrect. I always wanted to be the person that I am today, and I still want to grow to be even better. I was stuck struggling in the world for a while, but I never fit in. It was weird. I took so many hiatuses/retreats over the years because I did not fit in, and I kept getting beat up out there. I went ahead and made my retreat permanent in late 2013, lol. See how much better I am now?

And no, the Lord doesn’t speak to me with an audible voice, nor did I say He did. He speaks to me through His Spirit and His heart. I have felt “words” of love, joy, safety warning, and sadness/disappointment at times throughout my life. I know when I’ve broken His heart, and I do not want ever to do that again.

Nowadays, I just want to spread the good news, and I would like to help women who have been abused. I can do it at a church, in a domestic violence shelter, at a recovery center, online, on the phone, or by some other means. I want to share the knowledge that I have about persons who target compassionate, merciful, and forgiving women for destruction. The women do not have to be Christian to receive my help. I have secular training and religious training as well as a heap of personal experience. The Christian “theories” make the most sense to me , but my primary goal is to help people. Therefore, I wouldn’t turn anyone away. I want to help these women so they can avoid and/or detach from “narcissists.” I’m a minister, and I would like to care for people in that manner.

How to Claim Your Free Ticket to Heaven

Now that I’ve gotten all that out of the way, I will write a short post that explains how you can get Jesus involved in your life and be saved. It’s absolutely necessary as we all are approaching the end times. God is only going to extend this offer for so long, then it’s a wrap. Everyone out there has the opportunity to turn away from sin, repent and submit to the Lord Jesus. The process of doing such is not “a hassle” as you may think, and what you will get is far better than anything that the world can offer you. You will get peace, happiness and everlasting life.

Money, fame and material items are only temporary, and they will not fulfill you the way that the Lord can. You were designed to have a relationship with the Creator, and nothing else will do. Artificial happiness will only cause a deeper hole in your soul that you will continue to run around trying to fill. The Lord can truly alleviate all of your pain and fill all your voids. Additionally, you will receive a “get out of hell for free” card. Would you like that? Great! Then here is what you will need to do as per the Bible and

1. Admit that you are a sinner.
The Bible says, “For all have sinned and come short of the glory of God” (Romans 3:23).

2. Know that God has already provided for your salvation.
“For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son [Jesus Christ] that whosoever believeth in him should not perish but have everlasting life” (John 3:16).

3. Know that you cannot save yourself.
“Not by works of righteousness which we have done but according to his mercy he saved us” (Titus 3:5).

4. Repent of your sins.
“Except ye repent ye shall all likewise perish” (Luke 13:3).

5. Ask Jesus Christ to save you.
“For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved” (Romans 10:13) and “Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved” (Acts 16:31).

6. Proclaim Jesus before others.
“If thou shall confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shall be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness: and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation” (Romans 10:9, 10).

I would strongly suggest that you get baptized in water, as well. People argue left and right about whether baptism is required for salvation or initiation into Christendom. It’s a direct command whether it is required for salvation or not. Jesus did it, and he was without sin. He was setting an example for all of his followers. There should be no opposition to such a procedure. Some people in the Bible were saved without being baptized, but those were extreme circumstances.

As for what prayers to say, you can use a generic prayer, or you can just talk to Jesus. He’s listening, and most of the process takes less than five minutes. Sincerity and belief are the keys to making this work. Are you really sorry for the sins? Do you really believe that Jesus is the Christ? Do you believe that He is the way, the truth, and the life? Do you believe in his death, burial, and resurrection? Are you willing to allow Him to change you? Would you like to experience peace? If so, then this is the right step for you.

Good night.

Spiritual Immaturity: The Carnal Christian

I will be busy most of the day, but I wanted to share a website that I found with everyone. I found it during a random search. I couldn’t “reblog” it, so I had to quote some of the material and then post a link in case anyone is interested in visiting. It’s about spiritual immaturity. I write all the time that I was always a Christian. Many people could not tell because I was spiritually immature and quiet about it. I dealt with my issues in silence, and I didn’t feel that I had the right to speak Christ’s name out of my mouth at the time.

I was what one may call the carnal or worldly Christian, although I cannot stand the term worldly. I didn’t feel that I was worldly, but I certainly did participate in some worldly activities in the past for various reasons. Some were my fault, and some were not. The thing that I always have to remember is that I do have a choice. However, I am much stronger now that I am being fully led by the Holy Spirit. I did feel convicted when I sinned in the past, but I did what my heart desired anyway, which was very very bad.

My Christian therapist helped me to tap into the Spirit full blast. It took her about three sentences to do such. She asked me why this one sin was bothering me so much, and then she told me what I needed to do about it. That was it. I have been wonderful ever since, and we’re done, lol. I wanted to share this piece by Bill Bright (deceased producer of the film “Jesus”) because it can help some Christians who are struggling spiritually due to lack of knowledge or lack of trust.

This is a large excerpt from the site:

“In 1 Corinthians 3, Paul describes a worldly, carnal believer as one who acts like a non-Christian. Although the worldly believer has received Christ, he also has allowed his Flesh nature to reclaim the throne through sin. God still has possession of this person, and Christ is still in his life, but the individual has fallen into sin in one or more areas of his life.

Not yielded to God, the worldly believer is usually a miserable person — even more miserable than the non-Christian. He is in a period of stunted spiritual growth because he is not confessing and repenting of his sins, and satan has succeeded in influencing and controlling him through the Flesh.

Paul wrote to the Christians of Corinth:

Dear brothers, I have been talking to you as though you were still just babies in the Christian life, who are not following the Lord, but your own desires; I cannot talk to you as I would to healthy Christians, who are filled with the Spirit. I have had to feed you with milk and not with solid food, because you couldn’t digest anything stronger. And even now you still have to be fed on milk. For you are still only baby Christians, controlled by your own desires, not God’s …In fact, you are acting like people who don’t belong to the Lord at all.

The worldly or carnal Christian certainly experiences the conviction of the Holy Spirit and will not continue in his sins indefinitely; otherwise, he is possibly not a Christian at all. But defeated and fruitless, he depends on self-effort to live the Christian life instead of drawing on the supernatural, inexhaustible resources of the Holy Spirit. Grasping self interest in one hand and groping for God’s blessing with the other, this person fails again and again to live the Christian life in the fullness and power of the Holy Spirit.”

Click here to read more from the CRU website